This is me, like me or not!

So right now I should be at my Aunt's 50th surprise birthday party. Thanks to my father though I can't be there. Here is some insight on me.

Years ago my parents got divorced. My mother walked out and we haven't talked since. It has been almost seven years now since we were mother/daughter. My father always told me that he would always be there for me. He would never abandoned me like my ex-mother did. She has hurt me so much. She has a lot of apologizing to do. Well my husband and father are not speaking now. Not sure what the whole story is there. My father sent me this nasty email last Thursday. He said that my husband is no longer welcome around the family. He also said that my husband is no longer a part of the family. He is making my life hell. He claims that my husband has been talking about him and what not. Pete has never said anything about him in a long time. Pete tried to make things right at Christmas for me cause he knew that is what I wanted. My father ignored him. My theory is if my husband isn't welcome then neither am I. Yes it is killing me!! I have cried ever since. I'm a family person. I have just been thinking of all that I will miss. My grandma said that she didn't know about this email. She kept telling me that we were both invited but my father is making a decision for the family anyway. I know that he would feel the same way if I said that his wife wasn't welcome around me either. I always get put in the middle. I tried to still keep ties by leaving my husband at home while I went to do things with him but after his email that was my last straw. I shouldn't have to have a life without my husband. I married him and that's that. We have been married for almost eight years now.

I'm thankful to all my friends who have been my shoulder to cry on over all of this. I just hope that I'm doing the right thing. Right now my heart is broken knowing that I can't be there for my aunt. Not even sure I will be able to see them while they are here. Thanks for letting me get my feelings out!

Take care!!